“I can’t stop smiling”
Before I joined CAP I was really, really down. The level of depression I was in was so great that I thought the only way out was to commit suicide. At times I was just eating one small meal a day or two days just to try and conserve my finances to pay off my creditors.
I was brought up in a children’s home and then hostels. There is no training for life after children’s homes, you are just left to your own devices. I just didn’t know where to turn. I had neighbours, but they had their own problems – they didn’t want someone else asking for help. I was pulling my hair out. If you are nervous about something your whole body suffers. I was physically sick because of it. Just getting off my settee to walk about three yards to my kitchen to get a glass of water was too much. I just couldn’t do anything.
All that has changed since CAP took over my finances. They sorted out how much I am supposed to pay for my bills and debts and also for savings. There is no stress anymore, the depression has lifted, I am eating a lot more and my outlook on life is wonderful.
I became a Christian last year on a CAP break and I am due to get baptized – I can’t wait. God is always around me and in my heart and mind. I’ve made so many new friends through Vineyard. It’s really made me happy. I can’t stop smiling.
